Chapter 20 - A Door of My Own

I opened Dad's letter at my kitchen table eleven months after Brandon locked the old kitchen door.
The new apartment had crooked cabinet handles, a small balcony, and neighbors who argued cheerfully about the building's laundry schedule. I loved it. Nobody had chosen it for me.
Dad's letter was only one page.
Abby, it began, I hope you never have reason to read this. If you do, remember that a safeguard isn't a judgment about your strength. Strong people deserve protection too. Money can be earned again. Trust is harder. Don't give someone control of your future simply because they say your refusal hurts them.
I read it twice, then folded it into the drawer beside my work notebooks.
The estate's remaining money was safe under a trustee I could question without being told I was unstable. Renee had completed the audit and tightened the approval process. The financial recovery was imperfect; some losses would remain on paper. That bothered me less than I expected. I had spent enough nights measuring myself against numbers other people thought they deserved.
I returned to work gradually. My colleagues had not demanded a cheerful version of the story. They let me be furious, tired, practical, and sometimes funny again. Marisol and I started volunteering at a legal clinic that helped people read the documents relatives placed in front of them and understand where to find independent advice.
Brandon wrote twice from custody. I did not answer. Gertrude sent no letters. I kept copies of everything that mattered and stopped checking for messages that would only reopen the wound.
One evening, while putting away groceries, I heard a faint click in the hallway. I froze before realizing a neighbor had closed her own front door.
For a moment I was back at 9:17, watching Brandon through the glass, waiting for him to choose me over the papers.
Then I looked around my little kitchen. The stove was off. The alarm worked. My phone was charging beside a bowl of oranges. The door opened when I turned the handle.
I took one slow breath and went out onto the balcony.
May you like
Nothing about the city had changed. Traffic moved. A siren passed in the distance. Someone laughed on the sidewalk below.
But I was no longer waiting for permission to leave.